what IS indian

what is indian? heh, people say, man are you indian? well nobody does ;p. in fac thte only people who seem preoccupied with where im from and all that are other indians. heh, this guy, wha tthe fuck was up with this guy, well i think heh first thing that comes into my mind is he's got a shitty job in a country where he feels like nobody likes him. and fact is the way he was actin i can see why. it has nothin to do with his race, its not the pgiment of his skin that gives him such shitty personality traits. he fuckin looked at me and said, man you're just brown to them. he said it to me and i was pretty fuckin offended. it was the totality of it - youll always be brown to them. what THE FUCK. wake the fuck up kid and get that shit out your system. else youre gonna be walkin around palyin the victem for your whole fucking life. wake up man, people dont realize that LIVING is a daily process, and QUALITY OF LIFE means getting the filth out your fucking head. walkin around with that shit, man i can see wwhat hsi problem is. but then he tries to say that he and i are alike, because we look the same. no fucking way man, hah no fucking way. we re not alike at all. in teh same situations where he feels like he needs ot keep his head down and keep quiet im talkin, and the fact is taklin is the bread and butter of everything. if you dont communicate and tell people howyou feel if you dont get it out of your system at all then you are sabotaging yoruself firstly sir you have to take the time to right yourself most places will elet youwork quietly and mid your buisness do that and hwile you have a roof over your head then figure shit out and as you do then youll get the right idea because the fact is if you live with someoen then you realize you have to communicate for there to be understnding. people have to get one another and if people dont want to get one another then they shouldnt be living with one another. but the fact is that you need to go and do what you need to do, dont be a whiney little bitch, and isntead consider that every step you make with your own legs is a prodcut of your own will, and unless people physically drag your legs down then you are mobile buddy, wake the fuck up and realize that you have the power to start your own shit. thats what you need to go and do if they wont take you than do it your way. but never fucking hate people welcome people the way you wish that you would be welcomed. but instead you do this nasty shit. yeah you can avoid racist bastards. or snobs. or whoever. but dont try to be friends with everyoen anyway. you think that just because you came here that everyones supposed to help you? or even be nice to you. get real, you came over here and youre at a major fucking disadvantage, you dont have networks, you dont have anything, and you have to forge all of that out of your own will. you dont have the benefit of shit being easy. the fvery fact that you are in that country means youre doing soemthing difficult as shit. maybe you should have saved some fucking money up before you came over. people come here penniless and shit and then they whine about how they're working a million jobs. if they really wanted to make money, they can study the art of investing, or heh all the other millions of ways to make money. fact is if you put forth the effort, are ingenuitive, there is a large global market out there, and there are millions of tiny markets out there, make something interesting and sell it. but of course you cant do shit because youre so fucking worried about how people are thinking of you right? did you ever thing that if you are so worried about people, then people will percieve you as being worried before anything else. if you want people to actually rate you on the merit of your personality, then it is your personality that neesd to shine through. if you greet people with a whine then people will expect that from you and probably avoid you unless they like whiners and then those people are bad company anyway. its just common fucking sense. if you want to associate with people through your whines then whine to peope and theyll whine back or treat whiners the way theyre asking to be treated, with rudeness and disrespect. if you want people to treatyou with respect then act respectful. be kind helpful thoughtful but be yourself. if you arent yourself then you arent doing yourself justice. how then do you expect the world to do any justice to you as well, when you dont show yourself ever to anyone. wake the fuck up man. you are sitting there bitching and that bitching is negative energy. if you bitch do you think anyone is going to listen to your bitching and walk away with something positive? do you really think that you are helpign your own situation or anyoen elses. no way man not one bit all you are doing is now renewing this bad thought in your memory. you are chained to your sad thoughts and you by whining about them constantly are constantly reminding yourself about it. wake up man. not everyone is like you. and like that, not everyone is _ANYTHING_.

if you moved to a bad place, move to a better one. if you really think everyone heres a racist then why the fuck are you trying to work here. go to america man. its much fucking bigger, you can have a MASSiVE INDIAN COMMUNITY feel in nyc and all that - but let me say this, people who cant survive without a massive ( specific race ) community there to support them ) are at a huge fucking disadvantage to all the people that DONT need that, why? because we are PEOPLE and the world is a whole lot bigger than just people with the skin color olive / brown / yellowish. you are putting tha tlimitation on yourself and is aw you with tht girl that was disgusting man she was drunka n came to gie you a hug and when you hugged er you seemed really desperate and shit. what the fuck man. use the fucking internet. wake the fuck up. all the social shit you need is right there, the internet is a social HUB. network, feel good, do all that shit, group people by yer interest, meet peopel that way, in the real world people dont have signs, but on the net they do, and the fact is my friend, wake the fuck up, if you want to meet people purely by interest, then do it in a purely - text forum, the interenet, written correspondance literary circles and all that shit.

but ive gotta say im fucking sickened by your point of view here and ive gotta fucking say im pretty fucking repulsed by it nd i think youre a scummy ass person that i dont fucking want to associate with again. it took me a while to digest all this shit but man youre a fucking scummy ass mother fucker and you dont deserve my time or respect. ill say this much, i wont consider you a friend, and im not going to seek you out for shit, and i definately would not allow you in my own circle hah. when people whine alot, people get annoyed and evetually sick of it. and when people just sit around and moan when you can go out there and do something, then its just fucking rediculous. personally peopel like that are never going to be accepted by me. wake the fuck up, its easy as shit to do shit, go do it. dont fucking whine to me. i dont want to ehar about it.

its interesting that people at the local kebab shop were all feeling a bit kinda introverted a bit depressed lower self esteem and not feeling comfortable enough to just go and do normal things like other people, they struck me as people who just werent comfortable with things,

and i think it is out of discomfort that alot of the whole "terrorist" and "islamic" stuff comes from, the extreme points of views and all, it isnt so much the religion as this niche point of view. they are afraid of people, they are really keeping to themselves and its no good to see.